My day, or month, rather has been a nightmore that is snowballing into a catastrophy.
I am completely serious.
I have 3 papers due and all i have all scattered outlines and half a para written for each. I want to write it, I DO. And not just because i have to. But when i stre at the blank word doc (minus the half a para), my mind goes blank.
I feel miserable and i feel like dying.
So i've reverted to my manga reading/ show watching days.
Dad's foul to me all the time and i'm stuffing my face with fatty foods all the the time and i'm just...
URGHHHHHHHHHHHH
am i depressed? not clinically, i don't think.
I'm ok when my mind's preoccupied but when the story stops (miraculously, BIOE is still going strong), when the show stops-i think
FUCK- here i am
back at one
What should i do?
I just wanna stop everything. STOP EVERYTHING and take an honest to God break. Get away and be with firends. Go somewhere new.
I feel like no one understands and also i don't want people to understand. Because i feel like i'm just being whiny and a snob.
I really don't mean.
It's gotten so bad that even Gaga sounds okay to me ears.
DO YOU UNDERSTAND?
please don't judge
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o noooo, u're not whiny....i hope u r fine now!sometimes it's good to just step away for a second and go back to it later. yea, do sth relaxing like watch videos of Rain =b and it's the same case for me, sometimes when i'm working on a paper, i want to make sure that i have the best sources (yea, my papers are more technical)and i end up spending toooo much time on research =( or like i have an idea of whwat i want to write but i just can't ink it down. i think we'll get better with practice. hopefully!
ReplyDeletePS. i thought i commented on this blog post b4 but it didn't appear...hmm. hope this one shows up