IWhen it's bad, how do you stop it from becoming worse?

My day, or month, rather has been a nightmore that is snowballing into a catastrophy.

I am completely serious.

I have 3 papers due and all i have all scattered outlines and half a para written for each. I want to write it, I DO. And not just because i have to. But when i stre at the blank word doc (minus the half a para), my mind goes blank.

I feel miserable and i feel like dying.

So i've reverted to my manga reading/ show watching days.

Dad's foul to me all the time and i'm stuffing my face with fatty foods all the the time and i'm just...
URGHHHHHHHHHHHH

am i depressed? not clinically, i don't think.
I'm ok when my mind's preoccupied but when the story stops (miraculously, BIOE is still going strong), when the show stops-i think

FUCK- here i am
back at one

What should i do?

I just wanna stop everything. STOP EVERYTHING and take an honest to God break. Get away and be with firends. Go somewhere new.

I feel like no one understands and also i don't want people to understand. Because i feel like i'm just being whiny and a snob.

I really don't mean.

It's gotten so bad that even Gaga sounds okay to me ears.

DO YOU UNDERSTAND?
please don't judge